I've been pretty good at shoving up modelling pics on here lately, so here I am with yet another installment while they're still fresh! Aren't I good to you? Haha.
This was the last of the shoots I enjoyed at the Kinky Boots Slipland shoot, before I hurt my knee. It was a simple idea that we'd discussed. Coats, hats and lingerie. I provided the coats (borrowing one from my nan, of all people, the white one of which I've fallen madly in love with and really want to keep!) he provided the hats (which I also adored!) and threw in a cane for good measure. We decided the lovely empty lane by the shoot location would do just fine and off we went! The sun came out and the wind ceased for the first time all day so I wasn't bracing myself against the elements for these images. Plus, I was wearing a hat! I adore hats but have been nagged into not ever wearing them by my partner Drew of whom despises all hats, but he had no say in this as it was the photographers shoot not his, and so I could revel in the hatness for a little while.


I have named the shoot the "Country Pimp" because, albeit unintentionally, I feel I have captured a rather pimpish essense! I'm rather pleased with that.
In other news I enjoyed a pleasant few hours today in the local reptile shop. I was buying some food for Terry (large black crickets, the downside to keeping reptiles is you have to feed them live food. Quite the price to pay if you're of my disposition on such matters) and got talking with the owner of whom is an enormous reptile fanantic. I ended up staying there for quite a while playing with their live stock! I got to hold a huge blue tongued skink (a gorgeous and powerful creature... that scratched the shit out of my hands lol), a young rainbow python, a larger python (I can't recall what type it was, but it was stunning), numerous Geckos, some baby and adult bearded dragons (also had very very sharp claws) and, my ultimate treat, I got to hold a hatchling of my ultimate snake, a milk snake. It was the most stunning thing to look at and I loved holding it and playing with it... and I have decided that I am going to get one, one day, whatever the cost. It was truly love at first sight as it was with me and Terry (he was somewhat of a spontaneous buy lol) and if I had the money on me (a hatchling milk snake will set you back £200 for the creature alone!) I'd have probably left with him!
I believe I have what the fanatics call... Reptile Fever!
So my reptile wish list now consists of...:
*A Milk Snake
*A female Leopard Gecko (to breed with Terry when he's fully grown)
*A couple of female Day Geckos
*A corn snake, preferably one with a red and black colour morph but I'm not fussy
And currently on the maybe pile...
*An iguana
*A water dragon
*A Royal Python (also known as a Ball Python)
*A bearded dragon
*A mexican red kneed tarantula (I know its not a reptile but I would love to have one)
Does anyone have an experiance with the aformentioned creatures? Or reptiles in general? I'm still new at keeping them but still seem to have done a good job with Terry (the Gecko) if so then details of your experiances will be appreciated.
In other news I have decided that something really has to be done about my weight, I am officially sick to death of being the size I am, and while I know I'm not overweight persay (in fact my BMI according to my GP is is pretty much what it should be) I simply do not feel attractive at this size. My main issue is excercise. I don't eat very much at all, at a max 1,200 calories a day (mostly because I suffer from an extremely slow metabolism, if I eat too much in a day then I will literally barely be able to fit into my clothes within the week) but since I've been unemployed I have found myself lounging around doing very little for 90% of my day. I have a body which responds well to exercise when I do do it. When I was working and on my feet and walking a few miles a day I was still the same size but very toned and any time spent at the gym (when I could afford it) would show immediatly. But my body also works the other way. If I don't excercise constantly then I become a big wobbly mass within no time at all. I need to join a gym (once I start uni at least), cut a few hundred calories from my diet and maybe I'll feel attractive again a size or two smaller. Maybe. It is genuinely affecting my emotional well being though, I ca barely look at myself in the mirror right now lol, and I'm generally a vain buggar!
This all sounds very narcissistic I am aware. I think it most likely the amount of time I have on my hands coupled with my looks/modelling being my only actual attributes due to the lack of money and work. I have alot of time to focus on my appearance and that is never very good at all. And I know I'll never be truly happy... but I would love to be able to look at a picture or look in the mirror... and not see a plump untoned and average looking woman who is acting more attractive than she actually is by modelling. I may just need distracting with something more fufilling and I'm just overdoing the appearance thing because I have nothing else to focus on... maybe. I just know right now its bothering me deeply.
If I had the cash I would get an abundance of cosmetic surgery haha. Come on Euro Millions!!!
XXX